How many time have you felt down or low about yourself? It is normal to feel negativity when that is what you surround yourself with. Have you noticed that the people around you play a massive part in how you feel each day? If you are in a group of people that have no direction, moan about just about anything and don't motivate you to be more you will never be the best version of you!
It might feel like the hardest thing to do in the world to move away from what you are comfortable with because you have a fear of change. Fear is just made up in your brain, it is something that you create. Have faith instead of fear!
When you start to believe that you do have a choice about how you live your life and the things you do, everything that you wanted will start to appear. We can go back and forwards all day long about how you think you cant change, you cant make the situation different and that just isn not the case. You CAN physically do it you are just choosing not to because you currently don't have the strength to walk away.
Surround yourself with positive people that lift you up and bring out the best in you and those decisions to do what is going to make you happy will start to appear!